depressing day.

Exams didnt do as well as I hope I could. No time for my 2nd paper... didnt plan my revision well enough. Regret much.

Feel crap everyday in my workplace, there's a culture of incompetence.

Constantly felt that I haven try hard enough.

Today's the day I have my rare release of pent-up frustrations, and yet it has to rain. Now the rain has stopped but there's no one playing ball.

Emo, getting fat, felt despised, wasting my talent, wasting time, not being productive and seeing my dream self fade further and further away.

I wish 2 years quickly pass.

fuck.

Bad knees

Its probably the most critical thing for me as a baller. Casual player as i may be the notion of me potentially having a perm injury sound bad.
The recent aching and stinging sensation is a sign of more to come. As of now i still maintain a young persons gameplay, utilizing jumpshots, speed and hustling to overcome my opponents, its just if i dun do something about it my legs are gonna go before 30?

As they say :
Kenzen naru tamashii
Kenzen naru seishin to
Kenzen naru nikutai ni yadoru

Ill do the following !!!

1.Sleep early at 130 am latest!!
2.Consume less beer (fizzy drinks hurt joints!)
3. Eat more brocoli and healthy stuff on DAILY basis

Hope i could do it and recover by SC mara in dec:s

Things have gone downhill since my Taiwan trip.

1) I need to resolve my accomodation issues
2) I see the need to increase my gpa for a better job prospect in the competitive market

3) I see the lack of savings in my bank account, sigh.
4) I Feel that there is a serious issue of people not giving me enough respect or due recognition for the things I have done. Simply because I was a honest and down to earth person who would JUST do the right things automatically?

5) I feel like commiting sucide. Honestly.


Sometimes, so many problems can surface at one go. And at one stupid nah.. one retardded corner, you see adults, elders, people with supposing higher education lost .. unable to solve these problems. They dump it to ya... expecting you to give an idea. What I wan to say to them ? My honest 2 cents.. (which by the way this post, includes my GFN-Parents)

" Many people have disappointed me in many ways many times. Given an opportunity I will NOT hesitate to make life a living hell for these group of inbeciles for as long as I see fit"

A shorter version would be "You are supposed to be adults and elders or experts wateva.. DO something and GTFO"


I realised that I can speak in a no-holds-barred manner, which many many people do not like, some will get irritated and upset. But honestly, I said this for the 1st time when I was fourteen i think : "I may talk alot of bullshit, but end of the day 80% of my bullshit became your truth, one fucking way or another"

Dun believe that?

I use to argue that the lack of sleep makes a person lose weight, in the nineties it is commonly thought that people who loses sleep eat irregularly and have weight problems. Nowadays it is common knowledge that lack of sleep = weight lost.

Had another bad day at work. The auditors didnt even bothered to look at our files after all the effort sheeshh.. and whats all that OT for?

Wanted to jog yesterday but never, too tired.. think becos I had to wake up early and I finish work at around 7pm.. not used to it.. haha.

TOday BB asked me to eat dinner and I refused, instead went for a well-deserved work out. I feel really great physically, and I love this excerising makes me fall asleep easier. But I dont usually have the chance to do that...today I feel good physically, but mentally I felt bad. Sighhh I wonder if ever I could find a way to balance things.. =(

Still emo in the end after I saw the post.

i realised i need to take a good photo of myself playing basketball... just in case one day when I am old I forgot how fun it was.

Doesnt have to be in a actual game, doesnt have to be when I am making shots.

Just a couple of simple casual photos of me in the game.

27 going 28 and I feel that I AM in my prime now. I shoot better than before, seem to be able to read defenses better and can rebound effortlessly, defense wise I think I am quite Ok too.

There will never be a time like this. Not many years of Marathon running, basketball grinding days left. By the time I hit 30 in 3 years time, everything would change.

Ahhh I come to think that Immortality may not be such a bad thing after all?

I wonder how does Jordan feels about aging, must be pretty tough...=(

Tired day, we did our IPPT today and not bad everyone get 200 each ahaha

Some people enjoy stiring shit, from small issues to worldly matters , jerks like these like to blow things out of proportion. I reckoned a large portion of them are women, or pampered kids. Sheltered n cared for greatly these groups of ppl always think some small issue is the end of the world. U see em in offices, army , school days , etc . Its a pain to deal with them. As i grow oldr i often have to deal with these nonsensical ppl. Honestly, i wish retarded behavior just stop.

Dear Ah San has passed away yesterday morning. 24/5/11.

Although amongst the 2 hamsters we have, it is one of the less responsive and retarded. It is still sad to see him leave like that. After all, he is kinda interesting in his own way.

unlike the fat one, he doesnt run the wheel as much and destroys the wheel 3 times, each time making Christine setting the wheel back.
In his sedentary 1.5 years of life, I hope he enjoys staying with us.

Rest in Peace Ah-San.

This one's for you.

Oh my.. such a warm weather these few days. It is totally irritating me.

Went to have a bit of workout, then planned to read my texts. I think I can grasp concepts very easily, but reliterating them again is another thing. Sucky Memory, maybe is because im getting older, lack of consitent sleep, and bad diet. At any rate I hope to get decent results as it will affect my future.

Jia you !!!

A great bball session yesterday. My spirits were uplifted and I went home to do abit of homework.

Its a very nice feeling to be able to consistently put the ball into the hoop, for me it somehow makes me feel that I would have more control over my life. It also represent the years of work I spent building my game, even casual bballers have pride!

all in all it felt good.

I find it quite sad being reduced to finding satisfaction only in bball.
Roughly 1000 days more.....

I am so hurt.

Project for new topic is up , so is the discussion online. Cant seem to gear myself to work on the things...

Alot of stuff happened. Once again I feel so lonely, my insomnia hits me again and I started to drink myself to sleep.

I miss lion.